What is your ideal girl?

Heh, it's funny that you ask this. I've had a similar question like this one just sitting and sizzling here on my Formspring.. and, I don't know how to answer it.

It'd be great if I could just say her name and be over with it. Because there is one I cannot get my mind off of as I have hinted at before in my tumbls and notes. But, I will feel like a jerk or a duche if I was to say anything due to the situation. So I keep quiet. I'd much rather stay within the friendliness of the relationship instead of speak up and distort anything or ruin anything. Because when she says "no", then that not only hurts, but it does kinda sorta dent the friends part of the relationship as well. I don't know how well a person can blow over something like that and forget about it. For me, It's a challenge to say something knowing that this situation could happen and even after, she will always know that I like her more than just being a friend.

Yes, I am afraid to speak up about how I feel. I would love to honestly. I am not so intent on making waves though. It's a pain. It'll be even more of a pain never saying something though, and not knowing how the outcome will be. For all I know she just may say yes.

It's funny how I am not afraid to post everything and anything about my life. I'll make videos about my day, Act out ridiculous scenes, Blog about my lives events, Post photos of the things I think the rest of my friends should see because I think it's important in one way or another, Be the most obnoxious person I can be around the people I like to be with, I'll even type up a poem or lyrics to display my emotions and feelings. But I'm scared to let someone know that I like them.

I know this doesn't answer your question about what my Ideal girl would be. I don't talk about how she dresses, how she acts, the color of her hair or the scent of her. I'm not mentioning her skin tone, her colorful eyes or the smile on her face that could just make my day seeing it. Haven't mentioned a personality either. whether I like Taller or shorter. Long legs? Maybe. Higher pitched voice, or a loud expressive voice? What kind of activities she's into, like reading, or vlogging. Is she tech savvy? doesn't have to be, but that'd be great! Maybe she's into acting, that's cool with me. Maybe she's a photographer? Just as awesome, it's not like i'm gonna like her any less. she could be really into running, or into watching her favorite Tv shows all the time. She could love the bible, or she could love The Beatles.

There is just SO much to put into perspective here. you can't simply sum it down to a simple black and white contrast. Besides it's not just black and white. It's green, black, blue, purple, red, orange, pink, tan, yellow, and everything between. And you know what? The colors blur.
I'm not upset with this question. I'm simply saying I couldn't tell you what My "Ideal" girl is. I could Attempt to tell you what I THINK I may prefer. But even that might not be what I really want. It's like going to dinner and choosing between the salad or the wrap. You can't be Positive on which one you want until you've come face to face with one or the other or both. At least that's how I work. Sometimes I have to decide between two things that I THINK I want. Until I make David pick one of them to be as we rock paper scissors it. And when I win or lose to him and go "darn.." then I realize that I actually did want the other thing compared to the other.

I want to say I think I've met the Ideal girl. But there's nothing I can do about it. Well, technically I can, but I'm being hesitant. I can't shoot the gun and go for it. I need to put thought into this.
Oh my, I've rambled on a bit too long tonight. Goodnight.

Please feel free to trouble me with a question.